Here goes…
Welcome to my new blog. I am a new mother, a wife, a daughter, a sister and a friend.
I’ve realized recently that life is a series of training sessions where you ultimately learn how to be better at who you are and what you do. I have 4 month old twins and I love them to pieces…but as I try to train them to follow a schedule I realize that I am spending an awful lot of time training myself- how to follow their lead, how to organize two additional lives, how to keep up my relationships with my husband, family and friends. I honestly had no idea what it was like to be a parent and I think I was rather cold-hearted when it came to my colleagues who are parents. I had no idea what it was like to have no freedom and no time to do anything you did prior to children.
I keep a rather in-depth website for the twins- with pictures, stats, journal entries, etc. and I found myself needing another outlet. The twin website is for family & friends to follow and learn what we are up to- good and bad- and to leave notes. I learned recently that I have a few silent readers (family members) who use the website to fuel their jealousy and to use as blackmail against us. For example- “I understand your wife took the boys to see her parents last week- why didn’t she come see me? Why does your wife hate me.” This came from a conversation my dh had with his father this past week…his father who has NEVER come up to see the twins and who spends his life keeping score and dishing out guilt trips. Now, he has sent us $600 since the boys have arrived and has purchased 2 cases of formula for us…that’s what he does- he buys things / sends money and thinks that entitles him to something!!!
Let me just say- I took my twins to my parents so they could babysit them when I went to the doctor. I don’t take them 1.5hrs away just “for fun” because packing up all of their things and enough bottles, diapers for a day…not to mention ruining their sleep/eat/play schedule…is no fun! Honestly though, do I have to justify why I do the things I do with my babies on my days off? My family come to visit and HELP all the time…
Anyway…this is a start. And I’m trying to train myself on the value of being patient and kind to those who are evil and vindictive…help me out!
