sans babies
In one week I will be without my babies for 2.5 days! They will leave to go to my MIL’s on Friday at 5:30am(as usual…well now it’s usual as I’m back to work full time) and I won’t see them again until Sunday afternoon. I’m so scared and excited I can’t even explain it. I feel like a TERRIBLE mother for being excited and a TERRIBLE mother for leaving them for more than 48 hours…I can’t even understand my feelings.
Here’s the thing- we had our 5 year wedding anniversary (we’ve been together over 12 years) in August and we didn’t celebrate. We exchanged cards but that was the extent of it. But, my sneaky husband told me about this trip we’d be taking- he’d rented a cabin for a night…but it wasn’t until Sept 20th- worlds away. He’d arranged childcare and dog-care…so sweet and thoughtful. It wasn’t until this week that I realized that meant leaving the babies for 48+ hours. I’ve laid awake 2 nights now stressing about this. I know it will be good for me BUT-for some reason-I feel the need to fight everything. I fought childcare, babysitters, leaving the house, etc forever! I want to be alone. I want to be alone with my husband. I want to sleep. I want to clear my head. BUT, I wanted a baby too- and I got TWO instead of too. So, I feel conflicted over leaving them.
They will be 6.5+ months old. They will be with my MIL who takes care of them 3-4 days a week. They will be safe. What on earth is my problem?
Can someone please tell me that they did this and that it’s a good thing….and that they’d do it again the second they got the opportunity!@!?!?!?!
Chris said,
September 12, 2008 at 1:42 pm
We left as soon as we could. THE MOST important relationship you have for your kids is the one you have with your spouse.
Enjoy your time away. Don’t worry about the boys, there will plenty of time for that.
Janete said,
September 15, 2008 at 4:35 am
i TOTALLY understand your feelings! i remember the first time that jeff and i just went out to a movie for the first time, the babies were about 4 or 5 months old at the time…and i was SOOO ready to get a break, but once we were out, i missed the kids so much and keep thinking about them. don’t get me wrong, i had a great time, and when we got back i felt much more relaxed…so far we haven’t left the kids for longer than about 8 hrs, but this november jeff and i are taking a long weekend (about 4 days) and going to massanutten (is that spelled right?). and i’m so excited!! i need to get AWAY from the kids LOL LOL!
it’s so funny about your comment saying you felt like a terrible mother for being excited!! b/c in my 1st day of school blog post i said something very similar about not feeling more sad that the kids were off to school…and actually feeling giddy about it LOL! but you gotta remember that as the pp’er said, your relationship with your hubby is very important, b/c if you two are in a happy relationship, then the boys will be happy and well taken care of! and when you come back after being away, you’ll feel rejuvinated!! just try not to fret and worry about the boys…only call once a day to check up on how they are doing LOL, b/c you know your MIL will call you if something was wrong. you’ll have to tell me how it went!!! it sounds like so much fun
Childsplayx2 said,
September 19, 2008 at 1:25 pm
I understand. It’s been 3+ years for us since the twins were born and we still have trouble leaving them. It’s always tougher on the parent than it is on the kids.
Enjoy your weekend and come back to the babies refreshed. You’ll be a better parent for it.